Trust

I grew up in Santa Barbara CA
It was a lovely place to spend
a childhood.
I had great teachers, including
wonderful music teachers who always
encouraged me.
I wrote my first 'real' song in
5th grade. It involved a chorus and
a handful of verses and included the
deep and touching lyrics "we sit out
on the front porch and sing the day away"
a hit right? Well, my guitar/voice teacher
wanted to put this song on her upcoming
album, and I remember feeling "man,
this is it , I am about to become hugely
famous"
ha.
So although I was almost a hit writer in
5th grade, I feel like I am hopefully getting
closer to the mark with this new album "Someday, Someday."
Actually, there is a delusional aspect to being
a musician. Where are the landmarks to judge a career?
I am embarrassed to admit that there have been
several moments in my life of making music
where I think I am about to be whisked off to
tour buses, making mucho money, signing autographs
till my hand is tired etc.
The further I have gone in my career, the more
I realize that I am the one responsible for
my success. There is not time to wait for
someone else to determine if I can or should
make music.
Although I am not waiting for people to make
a career for me, I fully acknowledge that I
need help, community, encouragement, and
the belief that good things are coming. I take
an immense amount of comfort knowing there are
many musicians traveling the same road that I am,
and that I can call some of them my dearest friends.

On the eve of an album release, I have been
feeling waves of anxiety and fear. There is
a restlessness, itch in my gut like I am waiting to
hear the gun go off, so I can start running.
I have to remind myself that this isn't a race.
And honestly I don't want to know if there is a finish
line.
Yet, I know that releasing a new album of songs
into the world won't happen every day, or even
every year. It is a big event in my life
because I have created something of worth that
I am sharing with anyone who wants to listen.

So it comes down to trust. Trusting myself. Trusting
that I have been thoughtful in my preparation of the
songs, in the production, in the artwork, in the hired
hands to help me reach out. Trusting God. Trusting my
fans that they still want to hear more
from me. Trusting that good music does rise through
the sea of mediocre. When it comes down to it, I know
that songs have changed my life. I know that I
trust this group of songs.
I have treated the inspiration they
came to me with care. I know there is an endless
wave of new music coming at you. I guess I am asking
like everyone to be heard.
To be witnessed, starting Tomorrow.

To order the new album on tuesday, click here.
To see if I am touring through your city, click here.


xo
sarah